Who holds the clave to my corazo?

2006-11-24T01:40:00.000+08:00

its 1.35am now..and i'm back from DnD.. so early u ppl must wonder...
it's rather sad... this time i can say i've gave it my best shot... and well i speculate that the reason why she doesn't wanna accept is that there are too mani guys fallin for her and she does not wan to hurt them... but my silly girl...in relationships everyone gets hurt... its jus how bad..... well while in the taxi when i got her reply, i could hear my heart shatter... i sat there and jus listened to the music and God had to put me in a taxi with the uncle tuning in to class 95 and the songs played was " ghost of me and you" and a love song sand by a duet.....the songs began exactly after the reply with the song "ghost of me and you" "how am i suppose to live with all these wounds...." but i hav to admit todae she treated me differently...i reali felt very close to her... everytime she looks at me, i feel great... when she smiles..... my lips jus swing up....... while walking bac home after sending her home... tears jus flood my eyes and my vision went very poor....i was walking blind for a few seconds.... i was jus very disappointed with myself... i guess it can't be help.... so many guys are fallin for her.... and there's nothing i can do.... i'm tired, confused and very demoralized esp after 3 stupid years of waiting and 1 year of wooing.... i think this time i took it a little harder than before.... tml is class gathering... dun wori guys...i'll put on my best smile... at least..i'll try....

brothers and sisters thanks so much for your support but i guess she jus feels that i'm not the one?? i dunno..i reali dun.... but i still wanna thank all my bothers for your support...thanks alot for standing by me all these while....i love u guys lots!!! i dun wan to think anymore...i'm going to bathe and then sleep... nites all

"I cried when I had no shoes, but I stopped when I saw a man with no feet"

Feelings...

2006-11-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

today....i wanna talk about FEELINGS...
as usual everyting that i sae is fully my opinion unless stated otherwise....

Feelings, emotions..its someting we all have....happiness, sadness, anger, hatred, jealousy, greed...these are things that are fixed in us from the moment we were created.... its not a sin to hav these feelings(fact)....but its what we do with them that makes the difference...such as for me, whenever i'm stressed, worn-out or anyother negative feelings...u wun find me beating someone up or going to the ocean to SSCCRREEAAMMM!!.. nope.. when i'm down, u'd find me either at the basketball court or roller blading...cause this is how i manage my emotions.... same as how some ppl deviod themselves of their emotions by gaming, some by studying, others by vulgarities....its a natural ting, someting that has been instilled in us since we were born due to influences... but we could always change for the better... defination of "better"?? well... this is where one's religion comes in...

For teens, the most common feeling which we feel is loneliness... the feeling of acceptance by friends..... for some of us, its an easy job to be accepted..why??? because we are born with the ablilty to socialize.. whereas some ppl are born and brought up.. with poor communication skiils...thus, i feel that we who are advantaged shld help the disadvantaged....because of their inability to socialize, they turn to anyone or sometimes anything that would help them feel accepted.. in some cases, lead to bad company.. in others, lead to some ppl turning to books, which builds the world around them....

i would like to quote a phrase Blessed Mother Theresa said

" we don't have to do great things, just little things with great love."

for those in my school,FTPSS.. remember when mdm Rozaina took one person out and then told the rest of us to think of "stabbing, cutting, beating" that person, then that person would not be able to move his hand up??? its actually the same theory.. when u do something, no matter how little.. with great love... ppl can feel it..... using an imagery of how ur love for that person( does not have to be puppy love) is personifiing the gift.... this itself can be felt...when you do something for the person... dun jus do i blindly... think of the person when u do it, so that with every second that pass while doing that gift, makes that person feel loved...

Giving and Taking is a part and pacel of life, if we give too much, ppl take advantage, if we take too much, we'd lose friends.... thats life... we must be able to balance everything... Life is about balancing everything.... when we give in, we must not give in jus to satisfy the person, we must give in knowing that by doing this it would help that person to learn and grow to his/her fullest potential.. the same with taking, we need to know that when we take, we must deserve it, if not.. do not take it..... we shld onli reap what we sow... not what others has sown....

Always remember that by loving someone, we shld not be wanting that person to become just like us, but we shld help that person grow to his/her fullest potential both emotionally and physically.... and vice-versa....

yupyup...

takkire all...

I'm loving my...

Brothers,

Sisters,

Family,

Besties!

P-P-Y

a little on friendships and relationships..

2006-11-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

haha..todae's theme is "Friendships last forever" i'd like to make it clear that...what i'm writing about is about how the world is thr my eyes..and whateva i say, if it has offended you, i apologise and my writings do not refer to anyone...its jus my perspective.......
now in this general world...the word "friendship" means differently to different people... we all define it differently..... one could define friendship as having a buddy to talk too...or a shoulder to cry on...or both. In this complex world... to hav a stable friendship, we are required to know what is our friend's defination of a "friendship"... is he/she the type that wants me to chat with him/her often?? or is he/she the type that wants me to pamper or appreciate her/him?? or is he/she the type that jus feels safe by knowing that i am thr for him/her, regardless of all that happens?? thus i'd like to take this chance to type a beautiful phrase sent to me by one of my closest buds

"A true friend is not like the rain that pours and goes... its more like the air, sometimes keeping quiet but is always there.. constantly hangiing around you"

now...back to what i was saying... sometimes most failed friendships and relationships(most of the time) is because we all hav a different perspective of the definition of the meaning of friendship/relationship, therefore i feel that if a person is unable to understand friendship, that person should never enter a relationship...

when a person fully understands what friendship means, he would be able to see that friendship stretches beyond care & concern, beyond smiles.. friendship dives into love.... not Eross love (definition: earthly love, the common love of today, origins: erotic love) but a sacrificial love... a love whereby it does not matter what happens to that person physically, it matters emotionally... a love whereby does not restrict that person but sets the person free and allows that person to grow into his/her potential.... one very good example would be the friendship of me and Li Ling.... believe that even if i do not meet Li Ling for a year... when we meet..we'd still be as close.... this is only an example.... pls do not use this as a comparison because everybody's friendship and relationship is different..i feel that's what makes the philosophers and poets employerable...because they are able to see things differently from others...this makes life interesting...

tml, the war is on with Maths pp2.....muahahaha....get ur weapons ready....
(Perry withdraws his calculator) Charge!!!!

Nights....

2006-10-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

"When I fall in love, i'd take my time...there's no need to hurry when i'm making up my mind..."

i quote this from the song " The remedy" by Jason Mraz...

yupyup..i've got a request for all my BESTies and Sisters and ESPECIALLY MY BROTHERS!!( understand Jing Zhi??)

haha....if possible..i mean do distract me frm -- can...?? at least till after Os bah...... yes, i knw some of u are tellin me to face it...dun run frm it.....but i assure u....after Os..i'll definately face it!!
yupyup..pls as ur brother, i'm asking u all..thanks alot....haha.... i feel great alread...

recently..everyting is going super fast...studying in school almost everyday... 7 days to LIT EXAM!!!! haha...i'm very worried..Mrs Tan!! we haven seen u for SUPER long!!! do pray for us yeah????..haha.... yupyup....

and i end off with......

My brothers: thanks so much for always supporting me and lending me ur ears, and thanks for withstanding my lameness....ahaha.....yupyup..thx

My sisters: great appreciation for all of u...esp. Li Ling and Ain hahah... yupyup..thanks for being thr for me...Ling: we'll go to war together!!Ain: I'm waiting for our photo after Os!!!... and to all my sisters... knowing that u're there for me..gives me great comfort!!! yupyup!!!

My Besties: haha...to PatRINA: yupyup..take it easy k?? now no more KL trip le...over the HOLIs we meet the band seniors then go out?? east coast aight??? haha...yupyup..then we'll overnight there...okok???haha... to Wen Ting: haha..hey!! takkire of urself k?? any problems or worries...feel free to call me...yupyup..patpat..u too.....i'm free for my besties...24/7!!!yupyup!!

Lots of love for all my Friends!!!!

takkire!!

2006-10-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

Latias is cute...haha...

i wanna SCREAM!!!!!..i'm tired....haha....todae was a long day....hiaz...was in school from 9 to 9..like working liddat...haiz... tml would be the same ting too...i shld stop maths for sometime... yes!! tml is SS and er.....i dunno..hahax....lol....ahaha....yupyup.... Pray pray pray for world peace....haiz..seeing the world crumbling is jus crest-falling.... yup...c'mon everyone lets..pray hard!!! for world peace and for the haze to subside in Singapore.....yeah..i think i'm gonna search for tabs for Red Chrys then i'll bathe and go sleep...haiz...super tired...... but no matter ghow tired i am... her smile jus fires me up...haaaha....lol....

Do you believe in fairytales?

Nitez all...!!!!

I love my sisters so much!!
(Ain, LiLing and Azu, did i miss anione??)

2006-10-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

yay!! new blades at last....
SABA, series 6000, aluminium frame, wheels hardness:85A, wheels size :80
WHOO HOO!!!!haha...love my blades...furthermore its blue in colour....yay!!!
well all the material happiness aside....
i feel empty...yesyes...i've been doing so much for ct.. but yet.... i dun feel her response.... and i'm getting tired... as what my cousin Eric said.... "there's a limit to everything and if u cross the limit, pack ur bags and move on" its very true... i dun wanna pamper someone that doesn't appreciate.... i like to pamper a girl which would always smile and thank me with a sparkle in her eyes and her super sweet smile...
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From Mr thief to Miss bad shooter

hey hey....
sorri if i was too straight forward..
guess i was letting my mind think too far=)
i jus wanted to make it clear...
yupyup...
as for D&D...
if ct doesn't go with me..
will u go with me..?
I mean as best friends??

haha... let this be our little chat box....ahahahaaa..
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2006-09-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

haha....

Aylmer ----- Magnet Chen

Edmund ---- Gigolo Ho

Jing Zhi ---- Casanova Ong

Jun Wen ---- (Haven decided..haha...)

Lewis ---- Playboy Lee

Perry ---- Womanizer Yeo

haha...lol.... we came up with stoopid names..while on the bus to Ice skating at jurong..haaha...we got M.G, G.H, C.O, PL(but Aylmer prefers L.P), and urs truly W.Y....haha..lame shit man....yupyup....haha...and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER

JING ZHI!

2006-09-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

The world disappears

For the past few weeks, Dota has been my distraction

to lure me away from what is not an infatuation

i myself am lost in this bizarre situation

i'd jus wish it is as clear, as clear as my reflection

What i've looked forward this whole year

Seems nothing to me now, because of your fear

Of what people say and of what you hear

but i don't care, whether they scream and jeer

One thing about me that you should know

is that i'm just a kid, playing with fire in a dome

i tried walking into your heart, like a boy to his home

told me to catch up, if i were to make you my own

This poem's for you, though literally written

has complex meaning, like a feeling-filled mitten

to place over your heart, like warming a kitten

which is dying of hunger, oh wun you listen?

here i go again...

my hearts trembling...

the sacrifices i'm wiling to make...

jus to see her smile...

cause she gives me a special feelin...

that no one has ever given...

u got my word..my shoulder is here forever...

till then i'll count down 5 days...

to see you smile...

cause when u do.....

The world disappears....

1life_1lurve™

Angelic™

2006-09-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

i'd try...i'd try...

haha...super happie todae....well...yupyup..love to feel happie everyday...Uncle David thanks for ur advice!!!! yes..i'm still young....haha.....damn! haha..nid a wake up call..and i woke up...haha...so hapie...so mani birthday's coming....sw, jz,ct....so mani b'daes...so little cash..okok..stop askin me wad i'm gettin for Charmaine..i'm not telin u all...hahaha...lol.... its no big secret...anywayz..i dun care wad ppl think.... but i knw she reali cares abt wad ppl think..she's too socially affected..... well...i can't do anyting abt it...

recently....

a new trend has started...its rollerblading...haha....wad a time to start again...i'm all rusty already....my skills have Dropped super alot...today i tried jumping..and i couldn't do it.... :'(....boo hoo hoo...so saddening....well..no worries...getting late..nitez all...takkire

Peace out!

2006-09-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

HaPPY B'DAE TO PATRINA LIM JING NING!!!HAHAXXX

i entered the hall with an unusaul feeling, a feeling of which i tot i had forgotten. The feeling
of uncertainty engulfed me. i felt scared. i had forgotten how it felt like to enter an exam unprepared, but todae it came back. it has lurked in my memories for far too long, now its bac to huant me. Through the maths paper, i felt no peace of mind, no silence of worries, no whisper of motivation, all i felt was..... fear.

anywayz..haha...todae after the paper help zaizai do the auditor checking..haha...lol..zaizai everyting blame the musical exchange.so farie...ahhaha....lol.....anywayz..yupyup...again todae never study...going to sleep le..nietz..all..and hapie hatchday pat!

Peace out!

2006-09-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

I wanna dance with you, save the last dance for me
i'm jus a little kid round the block doing crazy things for love
all for love
all for you..

2006-09-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

a couple of Aces would do the job..

yup...prelim in 1 day time...yupyup and i'm not prepared but! no worries...cause i'll jus take it easy and revise slowly...i'd rrather revise slowly and absorb 100% of wad i had slowly learnt...then rush and learnt nothing of wad i had rushed.....hhaa....well...nowadays..beginning to accept wad God has denied..i'd trust God...haha..sounds kind of hopeless right??? but no worries... maybe she and i are just not acceptable...thats why God forbade because i know he only wants whats BEST for me!..yupyup...oh well...i'll jus wait..wait till God sends someone my way......

haiz...todae we received the form for the Dinner and Dance.... initially i had wanted to ask --- to go but then....i doubt i'll ask.... dun think anyone would ask me too.....oh well..... my friends are always there!! haha...yupyup.... off to study then...takkire all!!

Peace out!

"Purity of Heart leads to Purity of Mind which leads to Purity of Love"

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

2006-09-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

i had a dream last nite....though it was super short(hmm how would i measure it?) well the dream was someone called me and i was sleepin then i woke up and i recgonize it was she said she was very sad and wanted a big hug...then i woke up(for real)..haha...wad a dream....!!aniway..jus something i've found on boardofwisdom.com...haha...enJoy!

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist asking for the time... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their a** to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people say while watching a film, "did ya see that?" No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor!

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"... Didn't give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been
anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!! What can you do thats longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?" If the bus came, would I be standing here???

-loves-
Nitez all
Peace!

2006-09-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

hey! a pc wit Mrs ho!!haha...

i love this pic the most!!haha....Prisc looks nice...haha...

yeah man a picture paints 1000 words!

2006-09-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

haha.....jus watch a show abt couples and i found something interesting....
there are five languages of love

-Gift
-Service
-Words Of Affirmation
-Physical Contact
-Quality Time

They said everybody has two very distinctive languages.....yupyup....and mine??haha..not telling u....haha...ask mi urself if u wan to knw...ahahahah........

2006-09-01T17:32:00.000+08:00

One, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl it's plain to see,
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done,
Then I'll start back at one.

=) A tale of laughter......
=) beings with a smile.....
=) -loves-

2006-08-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

yumyum!!

haha...aightaight...now i'd like to take this opportunity to thank all my friends....
startin wit...

Li Ling
Ain
Floyd
Jun Wen
Edmund
Jing Zhi
Lewis
Aylmer
Dicky
Patrina
Yi Hui
Azu
Lynn
Kah Mun
Charmaine
Joshua
Nelson
Josceline
Daryl
Jodie
Wen Ting
Wee Gee
Lee Jia Ying
Joanne
Philip
Shamine
Gawlu
Espall
Jerome
Kenneth(church)
Jasmine Seet
Kenneth tay
Nicolette
CYF(all the ppl in cyf esp the leaders/advisors!!, sorry there's too much to type)
Kevin
Mitchell
Hazeeq
Shaiful

yupyup...thats all in my mind now....hha...

gonna go slack awhile then do POA le...exams in 19days time....hahaa...

nitez

smiles out!

2006-08-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

As i turned left into the sidewalk...my heart felt numb....Jz said..." eh? game over le?"....i lost all expression.....as --- walked beside her.. i felt helpless... the three words repeated in my head.....then was followed by a line of jokes...... i'm both mad and sad.....simple reason is... u ppl hav no IDEA how it feels when you give in all you had and u get nothing... i feel like a total failure.... i dunno.....i dunno wad i wanna do now... its so confusing.... maybe i shld reali wait till after Os but.....she said dun wait.... does that mean... even after Os... it'd still be a No?? oh Lord..... i can't take this no more.... to be very honest with u all....as i walked up the steps...i felt like crying..... alrite... i've wrote enuff..i wanna run away from reality..call me a coward if u wan...i'm going to sleep...i dun wan to think ABT IT ANYMORE!!!! I'll face it again when i wake up!!!!!!!..

I'm worn-out...
i'm burning from the stress of exams and ---
i need a shoulder to cry on...

No peace...

2006-08-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

I miss the seniors badly...

yeah...todae went for mass as usual....then went o meet Ain and Hilyah and Mas to study...haha...Hilyah must reali miss me...haha...cause she keeps whacking me...hahaahaha...... haiz.....todae is another day whr i tell myself to wait at leas to after Os or maybe till i've fund someone better.... Ling was telling me the other day that i shouldn't replace a girl liddat....and i told her...There's NO WAY someone else can replace ---....well..i'm now hooked on teh song Kiss From a Rose by Seal! haha..ever since i heard it on Gold 90.5 FM....haha...yup....well..... i dunno.... c'mon...i've got so many Gal Friends.....C'mon tell wad does a gal mean if she tells u not to wait anymore......???...oh well..thats life....full of unexpected stuff...... As Wee Gee said... Its confusing....YES Wee Gee....maybe she's confused..and she's making me EVEn More CONFUSED......hhahahahahaha.......well.....put on hold bah...i hope i can do it...yupyup...hav not been getting many smiles these days....OH I MISS THE SMILES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nites all..

Peace out!

2006-08-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

hey!!alritey..jus finished studying..can't seem to solve a Maths Qn....guess i'm jus brain dead...hmmmm...Here's something i read at Novena and i feel God wants me to post it...

God denies no prayers... he delays....
His timing is perfect as he wants wads best for us...

And do u all know what'll happen if God were to answer ur prayers at the snap of our fingers???
He'll be our servant instead of our master...

yupyup...takkire all....

Kiss from a Rose...

Peace out..

2006-08-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

Should I smile because we are friends?
Or cry because we'll never be anything more?

2006-08-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

One by One all my Brothers left me....

NAH!!! they wouldn't..haha.......yupyup.......alritey...todae is the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary....yupyup....i prayed to her and asked her to Pray for me..yupyup...doing tml morning mass too...haha...tired..my legs are sore....from the X-country...haha....yupyup...well according to Li Ling's nick..its 28days to Prelim...AHAHAHAHAHA....and i'm not prepared...haha...BUT! no worries...i can do it!! yes i can!!!.......

Sorry if i've ignored u....
Hope u got my Good luck message hidden in the 'special' chocolate...
YupYup...keep on smiling!!!

whether a Yes or No..my blahders and Listers...will be thr for me!!...haha......

Peace out!

2006-08-14T17:52:00.000+08:00

A Dream that was to be
our lives were all set free

i saw this laughter around me
i dream of this girl under a tree

i walked up to her wit a little fear
"hello miss, can i sit here?"

there was nothing reali
silence smiled like a fairy

Her hand i reached out to
I took it back, was afraid to be a fool

So...

i looked deep into her eyes and said
"Girl, will you be my date?"

What is the answer?

"I dun expect a 'Yes' but i dun think its a 'No' "

The M0[m]ent

2006-08-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

haha...well....jus felt like putting that pic thr...looks nice...

yup..todae was another dae..tml is X-country and well...i'm determined to get top 10..but guess the + factor isn't thr..oh well..nonetheless..i'll give it my BEST SHOT!!! haha....yupyup...anyways....everything is well..three more days...till i get my answer....i'm rather afraid of wad the answer might be BUT...Wise Words from Ethebert Tay...

"Dun expect a 'Yes' but don't think its a 'No"

Peace out!!

2006-08-09T15:51:00.000+08:00

do you all knw at times...when its seems that u could hav a perfect day...everyting is perfect...but that person is not free....haiz......thats wad happen todae....

-Mum came home from breakfast sayin " me and Ben going Magdaline(my cousin who lives in Malacca) hse and wun be coming back till fri night.....

-Mum tells me i can go and see the fireworks but dun come bac too late....

-Mum drops me "some" money

yupyup..thats wad happen todae..at least until now....wad i had planned was to bring ___ to see the fireworks....and after that with a bouquet of flowers pop the Qn....haiz...guess..there's no such thing as fairytale in reality...gonna spend a lonely national day.... jus wanted to let ___ know..if she ever reads my blog....

Do you know the feelin of waitin anxiously for the reply of ur sms??
Do you knw how it feels when u send message after message and you get no reply??then ur mind runs wild, wonderin if that person is hurt or something...?

haiz...i tink i'm gonna go and shoot a few balls later....i'll see if south cc is open..if its not..i'll jus go Canal there and play.....

i'm worn out....i need some motivation....

How do you feel abt me?

For you if u ever read this....
Happy national day...

Happy National Day all...

2006-08-08T20:02:00.000+08:00

doing an Ad for Marigold...haha...

well..everything went fine..... Breakfast was significantly good todae..yupyup..enjoyed every single min of it...i reali did....haiz...feeling the same way as i did the previous post...tml is the last time..NDP is held at the national stadium...and i wanna go see fireworks...who wants to come wit me?...well....... feeling very tired...sleeping early todae...nights all!!

oh St. Valentine, do pray for me!

Peace out....

2006-08-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

There's something driftin in my mind....abt my decision....i dunno if i shld...well its actually carryin alot of weight in my heart... i'm afraid to get hurt again...i dun knw..i'm lost.........damn..fallin in love reali sucks...esp when u're in a dillema.. haiz..great...now its my turn to be in a dillema...guess i got that word speeled wrongly too.....haiz...knw its actually not stressful..going after her..but sometimes i guess wan to knw if wad i'm doing has any result...and i'd love to knw wad she is thinking....haiz..oh well...in a way..i'm kinda afraid of losing her.....!!! am i thinking too much...i'm not even with her yet...well yup yet...at least i hope so... yupyup...guess i'll jus pray over it..and see what God has planned for me....

Oh St. Valentine, Patron of couples and lovers and love, Pray for me!

Goodnights all....

2006-08-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

i want a good nights sleep...and onli Sugar can do it...haha...Sugar dreams...

okok..todae is a rather tiring dae..i didn't finish my D&T....so saddening....haha..yupyup..anyways....all these aside....

i dunno if ya all think the same way as i do...but well here i go.....

u knw when somtimes..ppl sae certain things.. and even if its not said to u...u'll start tinking and tinking and tinking...i dunnoe...i feel it affects me..esp to ppl whom i care abt...haha...esp those whom i've in a way "fallen" ahahahahahaha....anyways..yupyup....so tired now..jus now b4 going for CYF play bb wit Po ket, Alvin, Ayl etc...haha...plyed until i feel like fainting..haha...well...thats bb...yupyup....gonna go bathe and grab some sleep..tml is another D&T dae....haha....yupyup..FolIO!!....

Craving for Lollipops...

Peace out!

2006-08-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

Perry Woods??

Oh my...haha......lol...yupyup..todae's theme is Potatos over vulgarities...haha....
cause Azu was being so vulgar...yup...so i taught her to replace all the vulgarit
ies with Potato....haha...and guess wad.....my jie....LJY...trying to be farnie lor..tell her "potato" she sae "tomato".....ahahahahyupyup...been rushin my D&T for the past few days...but todae i feel...very lazy...dun feel like doing anithing...but i'll strive...tml is fridae...haha....yupyup..change sitting plan le...ahaha...sitting near the dustbin..good lor....can eat sweet and dun hav to little the place....ahaha....yupyup...feel ike eatin lolli now..BUT very late so cannot eat....haha.....yup..think i go hav an early nights sleep...very tired....haha....yupyup..by tml i'm GONNA FINISH MY ARTEFACT!!!!! Yes i can do it!!

Peace out

2006-07-31T18:57:00.000+08:00

haiz...its 11 more days to D&T deadline...and i'm still at the beginning...Hnestly..i'm afraid....never been more afraid....prayed i have and God has blessed me with u greatest gift there is in the universe...he blessed me wit Love...and the Love from my friends in willing to help me..mean alot to me...thanks Gerald and Ben!haha....love u guys!! yupyup...in Skool...things are getting along well..tml i'm gonna punish the percussion section...haiz..cause they drop the instruments...and PATRINA!! my lolli pls...pretty pls...haha.....so tired....pray that God give me strength....yup...and well..i also heard some disturbing news...i'm kinda worri for Orange...yup..i'll codename her Orange...okie??i mean..i never expected her to do such a thing..in a way i'm concern and disappointed....yup......well....i'm still waiting for my FRIEND to update me...yupyup...haha....anyways..gotta go bathe and do D&T..haiz..hope i can finish it yupyup....nitez all..takkire...!

Peace Out!

2006-07-27T16:02:00.000+08:00

In the past..i use to think that when teens say..."those memories came bac to huant me"....i didn't reali believe them..until todae..when in class sudden;y...flashbacks after flashbacks after flashbacks....came in my mind...the times in OBS, the times outside, the times in school, the times in the movie... it reali stunned me for a sec..it happened after SS..... i believe this is the relapse of maybe my sub-conscience mind....wow...it reali is scary...for everything to jus come and Blow you away...iys like a moment of stagnant darkenss coming to embrace you...i felt cold for an instance...then i remembered.." i dun need a reason to smile" i tried smiling but i couldn't...then i restorted to wad Mr Sim taught me...Put your index Finger on your cheecks and push upwards...and i did...and in a little while i was smiling again.....whew.. guess..i shld store these memories..under the momeries department...instead of the Condemned department.......haha..... yeah...todae was the best SS lesson i had in 2 years wit Rozainah....ahahaha....so cool..yupyup..i gonna go bathe...eat and go for tuition....haha....yup....cravin for basketball now......haha....

takkire all ...

Peace out!

2006-07-23T20:04:00.000+08:00

awww... Gale's out....i'm so crest-fallen.... ='(......thanks to Gale..i fell in love with the song beautiful disaster...haha......yup.......hhaiz...well..gettin use to not hav those acrimonious arguements wit ppl le...learning to give in ...haha...nothing much to blog abt..haha...jus that todae..when to library to look for a ficition book to read..spend 50+mins at the section and still can't find a book that suits me....darn!..haha....lol..then went study wit Azu...tml gonna be another long day...why u may ask..cause the last period of the day seems inevitable...its Maaran...haha...going to half lollis tml ahahahahha....recently ever since Pat gave the graduating seniors lollis..i've been rather aaddicted to it...haha....StrawBERRY..haha....yupyup....nitez all...takkire....

Peace out!

2006-07-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my....whose braces are these...

ahhaha...yeah..its miss mooncakes...haha..so farnie..!! ahaha...todae is saturday....no bb todae..so sad..i reali wanna play...='(...then went for guitar lesson..omg!! Mr Ho reali inspired and motivated me...he play shen hua...u knw the jacky chan movie...yeah..he played that movie's theme song on the guitar...and he played it several times wit diff techniques..its so cool..i hope i can excel to his state or at least half of his state..then can play for my future gf or wife...haha.... it'd be so romantic....=)

wad a cushion eh jerome?

haha..so cool rite??ahahahaha...YaWn!..gettin tired...tml..serving 9.30 mass.. then either makan wit parents or go study till meeting...haha......after tat..i think i'm going to the library to go memorize theasarus..ahaha....studystudystudy..so stress...ah yo...D&T is killing me seh...but NO WORRIES! cause i knw..my dear sisters, best friends, and family would give me the emotional support i need....=D..its then up to me!! haha...and God of course!! okaY! nitez all....takkire..

Peace out!

2006-07-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

haha...my friends!!!

hehe...if ya all look a Little closer...u'll notice something...haha....

todae...Maths lesson was super boring..cause Mdn Sin went on course...haha....OMGoodness....tml even worse seh....double maths(which is free) and double ss(which is also free)...ah yo....dun go skool tml also can..haha....so tired..tink i going to sleep le...now 8.25pm....haha..got Singapore Idol...dunnoo wanna watch anot...haha.....well.... nitez all..pray for me yeah..that i'll make the right choice...to choose someone in which i can be with... =D......takkirre all!

Peace out!

2006-07-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

yeah..todae was a tiring day..cuz Mr Poon was giving us some PT man...i think continue like this..our class sure super fit de...haha.....yeah..nth much to add...tired going to sleep soon..watching cradle to the grave 2.....haha...hav fun all..takkire...

p.s. hope ya like my new skin...wouldn't it be nice?

Peace out...

The 1st National Band Competition-15 August 2006

2006-07-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

First Toa Payoh Secondary School Concert Band.. 80..(Screams!!even before the results could be announced)....YES..WE GOT GOLD!!!!!!!! thanks to Mr Sim!! though he is leaving...we all know we'll never forget him....yes..the unhappy stuff aside...i took a total of 20pics todae..ain't gonna show them all...haha...will show a few VERY NICE ONE!!!

Me and Charmaine...

Kuku and mi....(rahmat so eXtra) shhh...ahaha..

My SIS made a rare visit!!yupp..me and My sis!

Me and FIONA!!!!

Me and May!

Me and Wen Ting..haha..

Wei Ta, Mr Lim Seng Tat, Me!

they are all very nice... :'(..cuz got me mah....hahahahahahaha....oh well..i onli posted a few...haha...if ya wan other pics..tell mi..i'll send u..haha...yes..i've come to learn that sometimes accepting other's help instead of being arrogant is better..cuz now i hav another fren...thanks Wei Ta for all ur help....thanks.....
I have a secret to tell all Band members...I didn't bring my "In The Winter of 1730" Timpani score...i played on memory...and trust of the band and esp Mr.Sim....haha...s sorri....HEY! but i did well..RITE?RITE?RITE?RITE?RITE? esp the timpani player....wah DAMN GOOD LAH!! hahahahahahahaa......yupyupyup.....tired..takkire all...

Smiling is good..

Peace out

2006-07-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

i'm unhappy...

i'm unhappy cause we hav external ppl playing for percussion..i dun wan that..i wan a FTP band..i'm not happy... i told Miss Tian when i agreed to play for band..that i'd onli play if there are no external ppl around..yet an external person came in..now i dun feel like playing for band..i dun feel like turning up for rehersal tml..i dun feel like turning up for competition....its not the eternal person's fault..its the fact that they dun believe we can do it..u see...... at least if we fail we fail as FTP band...and if we succeed..we succeed as FTP band...not as FTP Band++....do u all understand? oh well..i guess u all wun...cause u're are not in the band ..u'll dunno how i feel...no mood now...though tml no need go school but i'm still unhappy...losing focus cause of this.... haiz...sorry Pat,Aloy,Rus,Ira..jus now abit bad mood....now i'm okie..but jus...unhappy...confused?? i am too...haiz...i'm gonna bathe and get some sleep..i dunno wad to do also.... from my point of view..i find it kinda insulting to bring in sumone else to play..its like saying " you all not good, therefore i'm bringing sumone in to replace u all" something along this line...i dunno wad to do..pray for me...arh!!!!!....BUT i'm gonna smile ....wanna knw why?? its course of the CARD! haha....

Peace out

2006-07-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

yeah man...ice cream...yummyyummy...haha....so happi!! my uncle came bac frm China and he bought two more colver leaves necklace bac for me...this time its a shield type..haha..gonna put holy water on it later..yup...toddae was a strainful day..darn..didn't eat from 2am to 2pm...felt so faint in school.haha..but lucky the CARD saved me..no! not the card on the PIc..its the card my sister Ling gave me..haha...pulled me thr another crisis....yup..oh ya..Chem file haven pack..so stress seh..D&T so rubbish...no time to do..oh well...guess i never heed the early warnings of Mr LEo..now i'm suffering the consequences..haha..anyway..take it wit a smile!! yeah...one more ting...Kana Detention..thanks to Mr Leo...haha...well..it seems that i hav Skipped his remedial lessons..but actually i was havin tuition...haiz...anywayz..the good ting is on thursday...i'll hav company in the detention room...yawn!..so tired...gonna knock out le...nitez all!
P.S. Hope ya all like my new skin..pls leave ya comments on the Taggy..

Peace Out!

2006-07-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

arH!! France lost!! wad the heck!!! Zidane got himself a red card jus before the Penalty shootout..i mean like..if ya wanna headbutt the fellow..why his chest...break his head lah...omg...u also ending ur career rite??ah!!!! Italy didn't even put up a good fight..man they dun deserve the World cup! ...i knw..i knw...this post is dated as july 9..reason cause..i dun wanna waste todae(10th july)'s post...haha...todae/yesterday..is sunday...yup...todae is Bible Sunday..haha..and for once..Father Adrian Yeo's Homily is good! haha......quite interesting i must say...hehe.....yup..then went for meeting...haha...then went home to rest...yup..after that at night i went to Popular to get my D&&T Folio...i reali dunno how to complete it in time...haiz...now its alread 5.19am on monday 10th July....yup..an hr+ more then gtg to skool le...so tired so shack....think later go Shop&Save to get a drink...cannot tahan...haha..later todae..gonna go school..and i've got a feelin Jian Wei is gonna scream his head off AGAIN..wait a minute..it ani't too unusal rite??

2 mins ago(5.26am) i was lookin for a pic to put on this post..then i saw a picture..a picture i took of...wit the necklace....somhow i jus wanted to delete it..but sumhow i knw its part of me...damn...i guess i've been ignoring myself lately...reluctant to remember anything significant...well.... shldn't fret over it i guess...cuz i've got lots of things to SMILE abt....like..how my sis LL makes me laugh...or how the band ppl fool ard..or how kts, lynnie Azu they all can be so lame...haha....yeah..see i feel betta alread!....think i'm gonna go take out the card and read..it'll sure make mi feel betta! yup! gonna go do D&T le...take care all!

peace out!

2006-07-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

haha...haha...haha...todae is sat...haha...wad a long...haha....morning bb, afternoon rush for guitar..then Novena..then went home to look after my bro..very much wanted to go Fiona's b'dae..sorri BM! haha...yup..but well...my family comes first....sorri... =(......yup...Hilyah also ask mi go watch NDP rehearsal..but i can't go too....yup....so sad......

Bartender....can...i....have...another...bottle.........

i needa drown my sorrows...haha......wait....wad sorrows do i hav to drown....ahahahahahahahahahahaha....yeah..so contradicting....mY LoveLy LoveLy LoveLy friends...made me smile...my other frens made me laugh till i can't stop...and another grp made mi realize....that every thing is hilarious..as long as u think so!! haha....oh u type 3 ppl!! =DDD ..

I LLOOVVEE YOU ALL!!!!!

*Happy birthday Fiona Lim!!

Peace out!

2006-07-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

haha...jz's cam is not bad.....

todae...was a waste of our youth!...haha....the brother's grp...wondered ard tampiness for the whole afternoon..cuz we couldn't made it in time...for SUPERMAN...haha....oh that's all for todae..my mUmmiE scold le..haha......

Peace out!

2006-07-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

look at Josc's red cheeks..haha..like Peach..ahahahahahah

hahaha....dun reali hav any mood to blog these days... oh well..maybe cuz nothing interesting has been happening....yup...oh yar..i remember!! Josc's concert..it was great! haha....yup...well yup..the interesting part is when Jerome and i were at the J8 mrt...we flipped a coin.. Heads:Mrt.. Tails: Bus..so it was tails...so we went to the bus stop to wait for 88..to go back central....we were both extremely tired.....haha...then Jerome was like "hey, 88 go central so 58 also can rite" and mi being a noob in bishan...said " i tink so?" haha..jus then ...bus 58 came..and we boarded..and i was wondering.."how come onli got one guy on th bus..and he is sleeping.... oh well..."...then Jerome was like " if this bus turns left towards the interchange..then we are on the wrong bus...." and true enuff...the bus turned left....and here are two fools...taking a bus from bishan J8 to bishan interchange,,,,,,,, -_-'......hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha....then we decided to take the MRT instead..and we double checked the station...haha...yup///so FarNIE!...yup...so saturday...went bb..then went out wit my familiE!!...yar and well i kinda felt a little hurt..simply becus my genuine wishes was taken as a joke...and well...guess u see me as a joke too yar??anywayz..the unhappy stuff aside...... i RealI wanted to go the Marching Bands Top3 competition,,,,haha..reali wanted to see Pat laughin her head off over somting that is not farNie.......ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha......yup..went Novena and Father said something abt FORGIVINESS that i feel i have to share

"Forgiviness is about giving up the resentment that you are entitled to, and offering a friendly gesture to the offender, who is not entitled to it"

how true this is!
and todae..as usual 9.30 mass..then went meeting...then went to but a swatch watch..yuuppIe!! Red colour de..so nice....haha...tml if God wills it.. will be going to watch Superman wit Ayl, Ed etc...haha...so tired..gonna sleep le....haha...actually wanted to ask Lynn sumting but she isn't online ..oh well...nth urgnt...haha....

Peace out all!

2006-06-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

how LoYal can we get?

hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha..lol...so addicted to smiling.....so cool... haha....never blog for the last two days cuz of some cork up by Singnet...haha...oh well...anywell...very happi these few days..dunno why also....very happi..cuz i onli flare up once this week..hope tml dun nid to flare....yup...hav been cutting down on vuglarities....haha...God's grace is upon mi....Prelims is in 7 weeks time...Whoo hoo!! so FAST!!! and D&T deadline is 11 Aug..the same day as Eng O'lvl Oral..it is also the day that Mr. Leo retires...haha...wad a coincidence...hehe...ah yaz..nth to write...oh yar!! tml..hope i can go Josc's guitar concert...wun be going for session(Sorri guys!) cuz i'm going to josc's concert..show ome upport to josc...yup..tml might be going jamming wit floyd and wl they all...haha....tml got band..haha....Hazeeq!!!! come on!!! we're counting on u..maybe i'll leave earlier tml...cuz i nida get the tickets for the concert from josc....haha.... haha...haha...haha...haha...haha...haha... damn i've got nth to write..hmmm...alrite...i've got a discovery that i discovered??? haha..i realised that i should have gotten to knw my band frens betta sooner..hah..cuz after this year....there might not be another chance.....yup.....

Peace out!

2006-06-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

The picture of old...

whoa..the Chicken eyes man...haha...

The two SeXiEsT guYs on EarTh... ahaha

Conversation wit God during Cyf 10th Anniversary...while the Finale was going on....

P: God, i'm confused...
G: About what?
P:You see..i'm confused about my leadership here in Cyf...
G:Carry on..
P:You see..my frens(Josh,Josceline,Nic,Ken,Jer) are all now in the bac enjoying themselves...and here i am..trying to do wad is right..and fufilling my duties as a leader to set a good example...
G: I see it...what about it?
P: I know that if i put you first, everything else will fall into place but....I was thinking..if i hadn't stepped up as a leader..i would be enjoying myself wit my frens at the back..jumpng ard and all...but..i'm not...
G:Oh..i see..now Perry..its not that u decided to step up..i chose you to step up..now look...what you are doing will go a long way...yes i knw the pain you're going thr(at this moment.. tears flooded my eyes)..you see ur frens having fun and screaming ard...and u feel left out....but dun worri...
P:how to? i feel lonely and all left out...all i ask is that my frens were to come in front and accompany me...
G: Perry smile..(i smiled and wiped my eyes)..look at Bernad..because of you..he's smiling and jumping because of ur love and sacrifice.....Perry, remember that i have always been here and will never leave u..i'll show myself in ur frens...(At this Moment...Benedict and Joachim pat me on my shoulder and asked me: Perry you ok?)
P:Yeah,i'm fine....

(I looked up onto the ceiling and Finally understood wad does God mean...)
and in the CYF edition of Mustard Seed...a line on it..assured mi...

"Don't underestimate the little tthings you do in Cyf. They will be remembered by people." How true; little things can make big differences.

This is the most memorable conversation i had with God....yup...i decided not to edit the previous one..yup....i'm feeling great....todae....is Father Loiseau's 80th b'dae...after serving the mass.i came home..yup..here i am...my Mum made a curfew for my whole family except my dad..."All tv and Computer off at 10pm"...haiz..thats jus so sad..yup...Thank God for this wonderful day..Bless Father Loiseau....and my family and friends.... yup...tml is the day whr we all get screwed for our hair and attire....ahahaaha...yup....Saint John Bosco and Saint Benedict...pray for us student...F.I.Y. these two saints are Patron Saints of Students...yupyup....

i love all my dear friends..and Li Ling..thanks for the card..you reali touched me..Thaks Mei!

Peace out!

2006-06-24T17:34:00.000+08:00

5.32pm:My head is spinning now..wonder how i'm gonna go for the 10th Anniversary....anywayz..i'm jus doing this post ...so later when i get back..i'll edit it...haha....yup...feeling rather pleasent these few weeks..Praise the Lord.....yeah..got back frm Novena..During Homily..Father said something regarding the Winner and the Loser..he says..that when the

Winner : Let me do it
Loser : Its not my job....

The winner always have a solution..
The loser always has an excuse...

and something else that is VERY significant..but i can't remember... ='(...(Pray for me that i remember....)

Yup! he also said that by giving negative energy..we fail to be the winner..bcus..we're always so pessimistic....hmmm..in this case..i nida change....haha....yup...i hav been anti-pessimistic ever since..... mmany ppl made me laugh and smile..THANKS!! haha....yupyupyup....when i get bac...tonite...i'll edit it...to tell u all abt the 10th Anniversary..... =P

2006-06-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

mi and the 3 beau..[cough]..tie..[cough]..s..

kinda miss the seniors..... :'(...yup..
haha...alritey!! went gym wit kt todae...ct sick..so couldn't come along...haha..jz said " dun wan lah...later strain, summore fri got inter class"(All the best)haha...lol...went for breakfast..then i rushed home to bathe and went for tuition...after maths tuition.. went to get my hair cut...Arhh!! that auntie..i wait there damn long lah..than come serve mi...liddat nvm sumore wash hair so long.. until i muz tell her faster....anyway..the hair infront abit funnie..haha...tml got lit then band..sumor got interclass...I WANNA WATCH!!but got band...haiz...the things u gotta sacrifice..haha...no worries..at least i knw Band has ppl like pat to humour it up!! hahahahahhahahahaha.....see yaz...Nitez all

`Peace out

2006-06-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

the Deco in the band room...(was taken when Mr. Sim was repeating the rests of timpani part)

todae...was a WONDERFUL day....oh well maybe not that WONDERFUL!! haha..alls well ends well...haha...yup..todae i decided to create another blog..that blog's post will be written in poems...yup..the day's events will be posted as poems...but here..i'll jus type it out.... todae's poem is abt a date..haha...yup..cuz i suddenly tot of grad nite...so i was thinking of askin somebody to be my date...haha..well haven decided..nonetheless...even if it fails, i'll still hav, ayl, sw, lynn dey all to pei mi go...hahah... ritey rite!! se yaz..skool's reopening...ahaha..mrs lai hair SOO FUNNiE!!! oOops..shhh....haha....

Peace Out!

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

yupyup......

-Life is a sec..

-Love is a butterfly..

Now..wondering wad these two mean...??haha...rite.Life is a sec means that every sec..is life...haha..the other one.."love is a butterfly.." haha..shall not type it here if ya wanna knw the meaning..ask me when ya see me...ahahah....oh yar.... todae wasn't much..jus another day that has little happenings but big changes..haha..well todae..sumone was exceptionally nice..to mi...hmmmm....i did doubt if it was that person at all...who smsed mi...hmmmm....oh ..haha...anywayz...todae..my dear frens are hurt..and well..if i'd be mean i'll sae I TOLD YOU SO!..but i'm not...so dun wori...everything will be fine...yes..friendship is better than being in a relationship... like wad i said on one of my previous post..yup..i think i'll end off wit that saying...haha...cuz i'm tired..and tml got morning mass..i'm serving wit Eric...haiz..it's been damn long since i last served wit him..alritey..take care all...

Peace out!

It would be amazing if you could love someone so much that you would rather be friends forever than hurt them in a relationship....

2006-06-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

i'm going to miss the band ppl yeah....all the 3 years i'm in band..this year i'm getting to knw more and more abt the seniors..haha...yup..todae ira and seha did a GREAT job (Good Job girls) with the store..i'm vvery impressed..haha..although i didn't help out..i sis feel a little uneasy....haiz...todae the band rm was decorated by yours truly..sorri if it's not nice..i'm not an Art student...haha...yup..i did my best....after that mi, Aloy, Pat,ira, seha went makan at LJS...yup..nothing much hppened thr..jus that my senses were tingling at LJS haha..then went Gym wit kt and jz..was rather surprised when Ct tagged along..haha...was wondering "wad is she going to do? she's all bones and skin..still excercise somemore...after that the bones become muscles....ahahahahahahahahahahaha" shhh....haha...lol....then now i'm at home..tired...tml i dunno if i can go play ball..i hope i can!! it shld be in skool...haha....jz is very anxious abt the interclass....oh yar..i'm not being proud...but i reali tink if during 4e3's interclass i was thr....4e3 would stand a chance of winning....HONEST!....fine u ppl always doubt 4e3's abilities...Bleahz!....haha....yupyupyup///nice blogskin rite!! i knw it...i wanted to type sumting on a pop-up window for sumone..but anywayz...thats not important...haha....so funz.....nitez all

Peace out!

2006-06-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

Yes..these are leaves...

i got a feelings..lots of ppl will wan this pic... cause its so beautiful..todae...morning went to skool to play bb...then i saw these leaves on the fence of the bb court..i immediately took out my phone and Caught the pic...i think..i'm gonna go skool on wed and cope the leaves...shhhh...ahahahaa....yeah...yesterday was my bro b'dae...so todae went Pasir Ris...haha...then my bro went play WWW while i went to do some BBqing...haha..then my cuz was speakin in a new english...where all the Rs become L vice-versa.. e.g. Labbit(rabbit), Lobber(robber), Lomantic(romantic), Rove(love)...all the B becomes V e.g. Bocab(vocab), Bery(very), Biolent(violent)...haha...still yet to find new ones...ahaha....lol...yupyupyup...tml is Sunday and for server's lunch is provided..cuz we hav 1000+ tickets for The cathedral's 60th anniversary carnival...haha...cool rite....novena todae was brilliant...yup...was rather surprise to find that Pat goes to novena too....haha...great to knw i hav frens that attends the same devotion to Mary as i do.... alrite all nitez...

PeaCe out!

1Life_1Lurve™

28/11/90

2006-06-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

on a picture Splash!! haha..well jus came bac from leaders reflection...and guess wad?? Cally was thanking God for friends!! therefore..i would like to show my friends off!! so yup...here they are!!!

Family!!! see the resemblance...sister is onli one day younger than me!!

These are Buddies i'll never forget!!!

Some faces..never ceases to cheer mi up!

Now.. these ppl don need reconigion do they??...
Cuz they are the reason why i'm who i am todae!!

OoPs..Forgot Lewis...haha...!

yupyup..there aresome of my dearest frens that i haven put up..not becus u're unimportant to mi...its jus that i dun hav a nice pic of u..so we'll take one sumday...yup...haha...=D anywayz..i jus found a new blogskin...guess i'll change it...haha...alritey..tml got band..i'm going in to prove Mr Sim wrong again..!! muahahahahahaha...

Lord if it is possible take this cup away from me, I do not want it, but let your will be done, not mine...

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

..well..i do hav a few frens who do that...

hohohoho....everyting is now calm...the sea is ..well smooth....but smooth water runs deep..or isitzz Calm water??? oh well.... i jus hav a bad feeling abt al this...oh well...why shld i care now?? haha... i'm so glad to hav strengthen some of my friendships that i neglected...haha =D i'm jus feeling over the moon...haha...anywayz...u knw how they sae that everyone hav a guardian angel?? yeah...and some ppl hav more then one angel....i've a feeling that i hav more than 1 guardian angel...infact..i think i hav 3....why u may ask?? haha..its because i feel the number 3 and i hen yu yuan...haha...thats why i feel so protected all the time.. :D..jealous?? haha...anywayz..i haven been studying..i'm damn scared...BUCKLING UP TIME!!!...band todae was alrite...haha..jus that some times Mr. Sim doesn't knw how much pain we players go thr... anyway..i alread told Mr.Sim the purpose of this competition is for Exposure of the Juniors..so dun expect me to put in a 100%...or even expect me to work as hard as i did for SYF....i'm sorri...haha....yup....thats all i guess...

Reflection..

-In 10-20 years time, would our(Azu, Lynn, Kah Mun, Aylmer, Edmund, Lewis, Jing Zhi, Jun Wen)friendship be as strong??

-In the future, would we hav time for each other??

-After Os, would we remember each other??

-i Know i'm DEFINATELY going to miss Secondary school life and ALL OF YOU!!!!

Peace out..
yoz

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

MISS TOH!! our band pics!! never send us....ah yo...wad a waste of time...i can't type wad i wan in my blog..so sickening..can i like jus put password on it....haiz..todae is not one of my best days... more and more ppl are involved wah..lao....wan the whle sec4 to be involved?? i mean lets look at the facts...if she has the guts to write these things abt us then she doesn't hav to guts to face us...everytime talk behind our backs.... if she can't face us then dun write lah...like a famous saying in Poland " When you play with the cat, u muz not mind its scratch" if u rite such tings abt ppl..prepare to face the music..dun go ard callin ppl for help....haiz...dun wanna sae animore..later more ppl will be involved...kkz..tml got primary skool bb match..haha...hope i can go...then after that got BAND!! Weeeeeeee...so fun.. can go there slack...and stone.....ahahaha... sumtimes i dun like wad Daryl Chua says..cuz SOMETIMES and i mean SUMTIMES...(like outta 10 times..1 time) It Actually makes sense............wah damn it man..........todae also learnt more abt Azu and Daryl Chua over lunch...it was rather enriching..to see diff type of ppl being brought up in totally diff environment...kinda makes u wonder......"Does sumone's past affect sumone's growth?" haha...so interesting..anywayz...tml 3am got Brazil match...can't watch..i nida sleep cuz serving tml mass..haha...after that i go home..be gui kia abit ..do my work..then can go bb...haha...shhhh....

signing out....

*If You could love sumone so much that u'd rather be friends forever then be together for a while...It would be Amazing!!!

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

OK! THATS IT, IF U'RE NOT HAPPY WITH ME WRITING MY FEELINGS DOWN..THEN GET UR OVAL FACE INFRONT OF MINE..AND TELL IT STRAIGHT TO MY FACE... IN CASE U HAVEN NOTICED..I HAV NEVER SPOKEN TO YOU BEFORE..SO WHO THE HELL ARE U TO SPEAK ABOUT HOW I FEEL? U WANNA READ MY BLOG...WELL THEN READ IT! AND YAR..I'M GIVING HER ALOT OF PROBLEMS?? HELLO??? ARE U STOOPID OR SUMTING?? IS UR IQ LIKE 50? OH YAR..ONE MORE THING...I HAVE NEVER AND I MEAN NEVER HATED ANYONE B4...DUN BE THE 1ST...AND WELL..DUN MAKE URSELF SOUND SO BLOODY GOOD...YES STUNNED TO BE READING THIS CHERIE?? AND OH PLS, IF I REALI WANTED TO SPY ON YOU..IT WOULDN'T BE JUS ON THE NET...HAHA..CARRY ON READING..GO AHEAD..I CAN CONTINUE ALL NITE!!! YOU CAN'T BEAR TO SEE YH LIKE THAT??? OH WELL.. DO SUMTING..U'RE HER HONEY RITE?? OH YAR AND... IN CASE YH NEVER TOLD U THIS BEFORE...I CAN SET ASIDE ANYTING EXCEPT INSULT TO MY FAMILY AND WRONGLY ACCUSING ME!!! I HAV NEVER STARED AT U B4...AND U SAID I DID...I'M SORRI..BUT U AIN'T WORTH MY STARE...YUP..THAT HOW LOWLY I THINK OF U.... gEt ThE pIcTuRe???
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Pyro

2006-06-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

haha..haha...haha..haha..haha...
the lame yet funny road to East Coast!

todae..morning went for mass..then after meeting went to meet pat to go East Coast...haha...i wait so long u knw! but it was worth it....then Pat and mi sit and Chat while waiting for Kenneth and Ct...lol..so funnie..haha..then went east coast le alread 4pm..then mi, pat, ct, kt go rent bike and ride...and i got Mud on my Favourite shirt!!! my Servers SHIRT!!!so sad lor...hope wash le can come out...lol...haha..so poor ting..pat fell down..haha..ppl fall down also can laugh...ahahahaha...then we went to meet ira and siha... haha..then by that time..the four of us were alread so SaNDmaN le..haha..then mi and kt went play arcade...while the four girls went circling...haha..actually wanna go bowl de..BUT one game $3.80...so mi and kt decided to play arcade...ahahaha..then it was 6pm..i nid to go..but somehow i got persuaded to stay..and blade wit them..i didn't regret staying a while longer... it was fun..haha..seeing Patrina flap her "wings" to get some balance...and Charmaine doing "ballet" to break her fall..ahahahahahahahahahahaah...then we went to the slope...during the slope...i think i lost a few decebles of my hearing...cuz pat was screaming on her way down...ahahahahahahaha so farnie....that someting unfortunate happened...shall not type it...haha...well...then i had to leave cus it was alread 6.48pm...i'm gonna be home late..yup..so now its Holland vs Serbia & Montenegro ..haha...so far Holland 1 and Serbia & Montenegro 0....haha...lol....todae was a FuN! day.. hope everytime we go out could be THIS FUN!!!!! haha... oh yar i jus remember...then while rollerblading..pat was like "mine mine mine mine mine" haha...sounds jus like the cute pokemon Minun...

Reflections...

- anyting that i regret today?

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

sometimes...we nid to draw the line..and choose a side..

Eng 1 Par 0 mins....haha..guess England is underperforming..haha.... haiz....todae..mi and jz got secret training..to prepare ourselves for a battle ( wah sound like going for war)..actually it is war..at least to him..i'm quite curious...is the south cc reali closed?? haha...omg i live opp it and i'm so lazy to go over a check...lol...haha..pray for mi lehz...tml i wanna go to EC wit the Band ppl..haha..Sunday i not suppose to go out..so if i do get to go...its God's Miracle!!! yup.... dunno why...nowadays..every 10 mins i'll tink abt the incident..and the more i think abt it...it gets better..but i'd wun'd sae that i haven tot of how the outcome and how we would settle it like..is going to be...i comtemplated it... yupyupyup...jus wanna sae..."ITs Great to hav a bunch of Cool friends to rely on!"..haha...yup and i went novena and i bought a rosary ring...haha..so nice...and i saw Deacon Gerard doing the 2pm novena....haha..was rather surprised...his homily was good...=D...yar...nth else bah...i reali wanna go EC tml!! pray for mi..if it is God's will...i'llgo...=D haha.... nitez all...

1Life_1Lurve™

Lord, if it is possible, take this cup away from me but let your will be done, not mine

2006-06-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

todae...was a normal todae...onli that i had an encounter wit the devil inside of mi..but i stayed cool...=D...haha...lolz..now got NBA finals...and World Cup's first match..dunno wanna watch which one.. but i tink i pei my daddy watch World cup lor...haha....NBA DAllas on Miami...ah yo...obvious Miami will win rite?? haha.. lolz.....all is well....all is well...all the best to all F&N ppl todae... u'll reap wad u sow.... :)....well..i'm doing fine... hope Sunday can go east coast...=D

Reflections

-Am i strong?

-The Coffee bean, Carrot or Egg?

-Time is the only essence that can understand how great love is?

-i'm jus confused..

Questions...
(pls ans on my taggy...)

Qn 1: Who decides what's right and whats wrong?

Qn 2: What do u all think is my best asset?

i'd be very happi to accept all compliments and insults... pls leave your name so that i can...hehe.....haha.....thanks..

2006-06-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

i made a mistake in a fit of anger......and i regret it...

Some ppl tell mi to face it..others tell mi to fight it...yet there are others that tell mi to run... see wad i mean...haiz...i'm sorri....sumting tells mi our paths may jus cross one last time...this last time could be big.. when it crosses..i hope i'l speak my mind out...and then i hope it would be over....its jus mi...God made mi emotional..i treasure good memories the most...and well.. its jus mi lah...guess even my "Cure for EVERYTHING" which is basketball...isn't working.....after D&T went to play bb wit ayl,jz,kevin,pk etc...so even while playing..i did shoot in quite a number of balls...but it never went off my mind....i dunno if i could not..or i dun wan too....the mind is so confusing...its so irritating,,, haha.... i hav been trying to discipline my mind...hope it works... well...i still remember wad josceline told mi...that time when josc, jerome, mi, and sumore ppl i can't remember...she said.. " SMILE cuz u'll never knw who has fallen for ur smile.." haha..but i was wondering...is my smile that smiley?? haha...oh well..tml got D&T then i've got Band...hope Band would cheer mi up...( i doubt so) the conductor bores me..but the ppl don! yup..look forward to more fun tml...

NeGaTi{v}E

Reflection...

-All i did was run away!!!why?

-i'd wanted to go and show sum concern..why would the phone affect me?

-Basketball can Ease all my prob...yet it didn't..why?

-How can i manage to smile and yet feel hurt at the same time?

-Am i better off on my own...?

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-07T21:17:00.000+08:00

My Timpani is all that represents me in Band...

i reali dunno why...nowadays...i feel no peace at home... my mum keeps nagging..my bro keeps irritating mi...i feel so dejecting....there's no more the joyous feeling of being at home.... now all i wan to do at home is sleep...i get damn tired cuz of al the nagging.. i once had this theory..

....oooo0000OOOO Teens turn to BGR becus they feel that they do not receive enuff love frm their family...

well...dunno if tis is true......haha..its jus a theory..oh well....now is abt 9.11...and i'm damn tired..i dun feel like doing anyting...i jus feel like sleeping...i wanna sleep forever....cuz i dun wanna hear all the bad news..and all the troubles that this life brings...but it is always nice to hear wedding bells..and the laughter of some ppl..reali brightens my day and lets not forget cute baby's face......i dunno ..its jus so contradicting.... guess..if i were to summaries everyting that is happening to mi now..i'd sae...THERE'S TOO MANY THINGS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!!! i'm also human...i need a break....

NeGaTi{v}E

OMG! the Chinese 9pm show jus said sumthing that struck me again...God muz be telling mi sumting thr the show..Fann Wong said "Its not whether i could..Its whether I wanted to"

Reflection..

-Could I, would I?

-Why am i so affected by society's thinking?

-What has made me so weak?

-Do i regret not doing/agreeing to anyting todae?

-Have i brought smiles to anyone?

-Did i try to reach out to a fren whom i've not reached out to for a LONG time?

-why do i still feel uneasy at the mention of that ******'s name?

Pyro...

1Life_1Lurve™

2006-06-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

at least i knw...My LITTLE sister will be there for me..

yup...last nite..i wanted to blog..but it was alread 23.45..so i rather blog todae....yup..last nite..went for Fr Ambose Vast's 25th anniversary as a priest....Silver Jubilee...was super FUNNY!! haha...then Jacob wanna tio ppl..then nv....then todae...my Brother kana prob..no one tell mi...wah lao.....anyways....todae was a boring dae..stayed at home till evening went to workout wit jz...go stadium run....now i'm damn shack....haha.....so cool..i've completed 99% of my handphone de worms game.......YEAH! tml got band...hope can play whole band..and wad i mean is play flunently..not stop every four bars and repeat..i get veri bored after a while..COME ON BAND!!!! OMG..the 9pm chinese show jus said sumting..that affected mi "Men can't afford to make mistakes, if they do, a better one turns up"...now how true is that?...but waIT!

Reflection time

-Did i make a mistake?

-Can i make it up?

-Did a better GUY show up?

-Why didn't i discipline my mind?

-i'm doing fine now... right?

1Life_1Lurve™

Pentacost

2006-06-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

i finally understood wad does Father Ambrose mean when he said that its one ting u know the right thing..but another to do it..i'm getting better day by day....hope it carries on this way..i told myself i'll live on for the sake of my family and my dear friends..God must hav wanted me to know sumting or remember sumting..cuz i served 9.30...attended 11 am wit Matt and Li Ling.. and served 6pm..and all the homilies were said by Father Ambrose..there MUST be a Hidden message behind it...i'll try to put on a smile tml..for the sake of not wantin my frens to worry..yar...i'm also very disappointed wit somebody..whom i call friend..when i approach u for help, u told mi..."it doesn't matter even if i know..."i always hear that u dun like me...and i'm sorri if u do...why do u sae "i make things difficult for her..." the problem wit u is that u're too proud...and u tink u knw how everione feels and know everyting..but let me tell u one ting..YOU HAV NO IDEA HOW IT FEELS! so BUZZ off.. come onli if u wanna help....u're full of talk and no action...yesh i'm refering to the girl who jus told mi not to make things difficult.... YOU THINK I WAN THESE THINGS TO HAPPEN? YOU THINK I LIKE THINGS TO BE DIFFICULT? YOU THINK I WAN TO LIVE THR THESE? U THINK I LIKE STARING AT THE WALL AND THINK OF ALL THOSE THINGS....U SHOULD KNW THAT I AM A VERY EMOTIONAL FELLOW...EMOTIONS ARE A BIG PART OF MY LIFE..SO nvm...doubt u'll ever read this so wad for waste my words...i'd rather keep them for (SPACES)

The beautiful smiles...are all g..o....n....e..

1life_1lurve

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2006-06-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

this is the first time in my life..i felt such a big negative impact.. i still can't face the truth...my mind has never been this way before...it onli takes me the most a few hours to accept the facts but..this one has screwed my mind...i dunno if i care as a fren or as a loved one..i dun know.. i reali dun...i hav always handle cases..now i'm living thr one which i hav never thought i will encounter...it caught mi off-guard..too off-guard...i read lynn's blog and the reflections she wrote on 1st june..and i started to think..and blame myself...

If i had spent more time wit..
If i had shown more concern to..
If i had held .. tight..
If i had affirmed my love..
IF IF IF IF IF..
things wun end this way...

now trouble is brewing sumwhr else..and here i am..torn between my mind and emotions..here my mind is soughting them out..and there... a Song, a Picture, a Gift, a Note and a conversion history jumbles them up... i hav been trying to face it..but i can't...i ran....but the world is round and i came bac to the prob again.... and guess wad even the Word verification is spelling --'s nick....i made a wrong move..i paid a price for it....no i'm not ok...i'm not...i'm not...sometimes i jus wanna set myself on fire..jus to see if i could feel anymore pain...i wanna run into a wall, get hit by a car, get burned....i wanna see if the is anymore degree of pain that i can reach... i feel....i feel angry,hurt,devastated,confused,lost.......i feel.......pain...

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Not Ok..

2006-06-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

wanna start off first by saying i'm sorri....to all my frens...wasn't myself todae in skool...yar..i'm feeling better but i'm not okie yet...still recovering..sorri i can't share wit u all..i gave that person my word..that person who landed me in this state....u can put it that i'm in a rather bad state..sorry all....well Special thanks to my mei li ling and lynniE...thanks....i'll fight till the end...

This Is My GAmE!

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1st June2006

2006-06-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

todae..at exactly 9:24:20 PM i found out someting that shattered my heart and made my eyes flooded with tears the moment i read it.....i shall not sae animre..
i guess i'll not gt ani sleep...tonite..my bros and sis..this is the time i nid u most...and i nid u(the guitar song: I FEEL LOVE)

1 Life :'( 1 Luurrvve

StOOpid PiXC

2006-05-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

The Mouse has Landed....haha....

yup...todae....play bb from 11.45 to 4+pm..now i so chaota...look like fried banana....hehe....hehe....so hapi....lolz...dun tell u all....not much new happenings...and well for all my church frenz....DID you knw one of our priest is turning 80 this year?? OMG!!!! haha.....nth much..got a few RETARDED pics...ENJOY!

haha...i'm not a bear!!

Use mouse???not Literally....haha...

For all complain Kings and Queens out thr..

=[SaIn( t )aNiC]=™

2006-05-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! PLUSLE is so CutE!!!cause its my fav colour..and its Positive!!!

Pichu is so peaceful....

So nice...

lol..i was watching a Pokemon VCD movie todae....Pokemon Destiny Dexoys...then got Plusle and Minun..i immediately fell in love wit them..they're so cute....haha....Plusle is even more cuter...haha...yup....todae was also My bro's 1st holy Communion...

haha....the Certificate is Exactly the same as mine 7years ago..haha...oh yar..u all shld take a look at my Plusle theme on my phone..i made it myself...haha.....:D.....yup..so nice.......tml many ppl are takin Chinese O'lvl...all the bez.......tml i'll be at the bb court cheering u all on...haha.... :X..smilez all...

=[SaIn( t )aNiC]=™

no mood

2006-05-27T20:15:00.000+08:00

no mood to blog......there's a war going on inside me...an old war....wit same characters...jus diff area...

1Life_1Lurve™

oh...

2006-05-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

I just found a Quote that would summarize the road to victory in Life....

"Its not how LONG it has been...

Its how MUCH you have done...."

Perry Peter Yeo Tat Liang

its true aight...in studies, work, play and esp in love....anywayz..todae went to watch X-men 3...was kinda nice...the story line was good..but it was short..ONLY 1 1/2 HOUR??? wad were the producers thinking...i tink they went out of budget..haha...cuz Pyro was like blowing so many tings up..blowing until...they went out of budget...haha....lolz...todae also got bac my report book...rather disappointed my daddy was...yup...but i'm determined to prove him wrong....yup..everyone seems to be mugging for chinese O lvl...all the bez guys!! yup....getting late...i'll be sleeping soon....haiz...nid to keep myself occupied....yeah...dunno how to pass time tml also....nv tot i'd feel lonely...well..let's laugh abt...hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..maybe i'll feel betta....yeah...guess tml also no bb....nitez all..

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too fast....!

2006-05-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

Thats rite...SLOW...life shld take a slow turn...everytings moving fast..can't keep up man....but gotta strive...haha...todae...nida clean the classyroomy....haha...while cleaning my table..i found some old memories thr*WinkS* rite Lynn?? haha..yup..and got lots of books to bring home...after skool..went to watch interclass bb..but it started to rain...very heavily..lucky i was alread home..when the "thunderstorm" struck....anywayz tml watchin X-men3

with Eric and Kenneth Tay...yup...so cool man..finally its out...!! haha..tml is also MEET the PARENTS!!!!! haha...sound like some horror movie...haha....i guess if it is a horror movie..the setting would be my house...haha...oh..well..no worrries...jus nid to start revising...and yar..crystal..stay strong!!!!.....

Remember...

yar..and well...was browsing thr my friendster messages and stumbled upon my last messages wit -- ---- well...then i was wondering...her messages actually make sense...well....was my decision too hash?? was my words too piercing?? was my actions too forceful??? why am i feeling regrets?? i dun understand....my "advisors" Pls reply..!

ok...i'm not being myself..i'm losing control...stop! everyone STOP!!!!!! JUS STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ask them to stop....stop.....sto.....

Fate??

2006-05-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

Does Fate actually exist or is it jus sumting tat we create to put reasons or blames to?? well...u knw..there is this girl...and well she and i...can sae quite fated..though she sae " we're not fated"...oh well its up too God to create the spark...yup...anywayz...away from tat..i jus realized how much my frens play a part in my life....haha...jus been enlightened....yup..Whoo...got inspiration to write poem.....

FRIENDS COME ALONG

Holding on to such a flag that says "help me"
Friends come along with feathers to tickle u to ur right key...

Mistaken as a breaking glass..ppl avoid u
Friends come along to take a closer look
To mend ur wounds and turn u "cool"
To test ur will, wit songs u're hook

Right here waiting for the ones that would
Walk with u in this life long journey
Friends come along to unveil ur hood
To see ur True colours and find it funny

Above all Ships..this is the most precious
Friendship shld be one of the wonders of the world
Its prettier than the Ark and more stronger than the Titanic
Friends come along not to make u furious
Friends come along not to make u hurl
Friends come along to make u feel FANTASTIC

faster clap hand..*clap*..all this is imprompto de lor think i'll name it "FRIENDS COME ALONG"....so cool rite?? haha..shld try and write more...haha...yup..todae eng oral kana kill...was lost for words..think i will jus pass lor...BUT NVM...there's still my paper 1 and paper 2 to kill the teachers....and *******...haha.....u all dunno who rite??hehehe....any wayz...yar....tink betta start doing my "talent corner" haha.....its my TURN KOK HO!!! haha......yupz....Edmund is taking Oral tml..all the bezt..and tml got interclass..my support is wit 4E1 and 4E2...though there could onli be one winner..haha.....nitez all

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2006-05-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

Windy day yeah??

OMG...is there a resemblance??haha...

tml is PRELIM oral...haha....jus for those who didn't knw..there's no more Picture discription..now is Picture DICUSSION...haha....jus learned from it from my Tuition teacher...haha...todae CLB watch Initial D....haha...not bad lah..jus that Jay Chou talk also can zhou ying..haha...so funny..haha...tml morning going serve mass..so muz sleep early..haha...tml also muz recess go take measurements for Band UNiform....haha....anywayz....tml will be a long dae..yupyup....all the best ppl...haha...yup...my Zippo lighter got fuel le..jus tat my mum keep..but can smuggle out anytime de...haha....yup NiteZ all..

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Sunday again...

2006-05-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

Me daddy and me...haha..find the resemblance...

me and my mummy....See the REsEmblancE??

todae...jus another sunday bah...morning went to church...then went to meeting...haha...lolz...dunno whether june wanna hav camp..haha...anywayz...surppose to study..ended up never..tml..is Chinese intensive..but i CL B so i tink go there and Slack..haha....quite happy...cuz got some contact from some old friends..haha...good..very happy to knw old friends haven forgotten mi...haha...yup..gotten the 1GB mini SD..haha...very big seh..can take up to 1900+ pictures lor..wah..super lots..dunno if can finish,,,now jus finish watch Singapore Idol...so funny seh...haha....Singapore Cowboy vs Kungfu Rapper...hehe...alritey..all the best to the normal Chinese ppl...see yaz..tml

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:D

2006-05-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

jus so...u all knw...the song that u are hearing now(hope u can hear??) is yup! Kane's Entrance song...its called

slow chemical by Finger eleven

The wonder of the world is gone and old for sure
All the wonder that I would have found in her

As a hole becomes another strike to burn
An old flame returns

Every intuition fails to find it's way
One more table turned around I'm back again

Finding I'm a lost and found when she's not around
When she's not around I feel it coming down

Get me what I could never ask for
Connect me and you could be my chemical NOW

Give me the drug you know I'm after
Connect me and you could be my chemical

When everybody wants (the chemical of) your soul

When everybody wants (the chemical of) your soul

Slow and
Everybody wants you
So
Slow and
Everybody wants your soul

Give me what I could never ask for
connect me and you could be my chemical NOW

Give me the drug you know I'm after
Connect me and you could be the chemical

You could be the chemical
You could be the chemical
You could be the chemical
You could be the chemical

Todae...quite okie lor....went South cc play ball then went West CC....wah ..then went for guitar..and that was morning.. so chiong....haha....afternoon....nth much lor...onli evening went TAKA buy ting...buy DVD and buy a paiir of AND 1 pants mice seh....haha...lol...then jz use ct fone video call mi....haha..sorry jz..wasn't in the best of mood jus now..haha...next time sms mi first mah...haha....yup...todae was jus ANOTHER dae.....tml gtg get my NG frm Andrew...haha..if not monday sure die..... yupyup....thats all for todae folks...haha...thank God for this DAy!

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band outing...

2006-05-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

me and wen ting.... :D

lolz...after the egg breaking game....i'm "bleeding eggyoke..ARHHHH!!!!"

Band outing was alrite...jus the last game was abit dirty..haha...Miss tall..ErM..i mean Miss toh...started off wit Icebreakers...[i'll get the pics that was taken during the outing and post them up sum other time].....then we surprise Miss Zaihana wit a birthdae cake...haha....cool rite...anywayz...we were spilt into 4 grps...my grp onli got two guys..shaiful(who joined us later) and myself...oh yar i forgot Shivam also guy..haha....then we name ourselves SEASIDE...i came up with a cheer...2 tell u the truth i actually felt like it was more of a poem then a cheer..it goes like this....

Seaside, Seaside
We will fight
We will get to greater heights

Teachers, Teachers
We will win
Even the sky supports us with the wind

Nice rite???haha....so poetic seh....cannot tahan...anywayz..i onli hav like two minutes to tink.so sorry if it was a sloppy cheer...[Sorry guys!] then the egg game...damn fun....everybody kana flour...so whitey..then my hair kana the egg yolk...wah..my hair feels so "healthy"..so much protein...after tat...mi and Kenneth actually wanted to blade...but can't cuz no time le...Kenneth like wanna show off his blading skill..keep asking mi to blade..haha...[shhh..nah beh..now who betray mi...i make sure u DIE] haha...jkjk..anywayz..then went bowls and plates to eat...erm i mean forks and spoons..haha..todae pat teach us new "sign language" lolz..the fork and spoon sign..using our palms...one palm show three fingers ..the other cover up...and there u go..FORKS and SPOONS...so cool rite?? haha...then eat eat eat..then they(Aloy,Qian Ying,Charmaine,Patrina) started talking abt A mathes..then Kenneth and I jus sit there and stone...then later i went to church ..see Josh they all..then watch the Cyf 10th anniversary Band prac..then suddenly became super tired...vision started to blur..so at St. Francis...which was surppose to be the study room..i took out the NG and started reading..then i decided to sleep awhile..then 9.56 liddat i left..went home and rested...haha...todae was fun...MRS JOANN TAN Where is my lit paper???:'( Everybody got bac their paper le...except floyd and mi...but i sms her ..she said Floyd and I did good....[wonder wad that means????] i ask her for marks ..she sae..."Mrs Tan is old. Can't remember..." haha...wad an excuse..then our tests she wun forget, our homework she dun forget....she also not THAT old..the most i think is 50++ bah..muahahaha....jkjk...[shhh]...haha...tml morning going play bb wit ayl at South cc..then later 9.40 liddat going West CC play ball again...haha...so bz..then 12.30 go guitar prac...bzbzbz....yep....THank God for this wonderful dae.... :D

=[SaIn( t )aNiC]=™

another day...

2006-05-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

MVP of the day....

WOrds from Perry the Great muahahaha :POSTURE!!!!!

wah..Josh cool seh...

see...all smiles....

haha...todae get bac results....DAMN BAD....damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn bad....shall not touch on it..todae...haiz....after skool..surppose to hav sum band meeting..then i no mood go...so nv go lor...i scared later i go..then spoil everyone's mood...yup..then i wen to watch interclass......not bad lar...but the more i watch the more i very unhappy...cuz i didnn't get to play this year...cuz 4e3's match fell on Ash wednesday then nid to go for mass...haiz..God doesn't wa mi to play..oh well...so i became the "photographer" lor..trying to get sum nice pics....well out of all the top four is the nicest..haha..the rest not nice...haha...i stay bac pei jz till 6+ his mtch over then go bac home..haha...anywayz..tml going for band outing..at East Coast....haiz....results spoil all the mood le...dun feel like going...anywayz..i'll jus go....yup..tml after the outing ..think dropping down to church for a while..then go home lor..now damn tired...my throat still haven ok...sian....haha...Nitez all....

=[SaIn( t )aNiC]=™

East Coast

2006-05-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

My dear Jodie....:D [X]hAhA[X]

double team...????

Cool rite???

----Anywayz----...todae went east coast wit the ppl u see up thr...haha...quite fun lah..jus that jz super joker...(as usual) Nah beh...who the Idiot who tell ayl to look at my blog?? haha...anywayz...quite okie lar...RH can't cycle so i pei him by rollor blading....get to knw him betta le....then the sian part was when jy,sw,jo went to bathe ...WAH!! basket like going home le....Bathe super long....sian....then went bowling...Haiz...Aylmer win 101(i made a mistake is Aylmer win...and Aylmer ask mi to change de....cuz he wan me advertise for him..put him up for sale...)...i so lag le..gettin old...onli got 99 haha...muz retire...hehe..then makan dinner....here conmes the lame part...we went to play AEIOU.....it originated from the game "wad time is it...Mr wolf?" haha..wad a lame game but fun....haha.....yup..tml gettin bac results...yup.....2weeks never see Maaran le...tml gg to see her....:'(...haha....yar now muz go rest le...no voice damn sick......All the best to u all!!!!

keyboard okie le...

2006-05-16T16:15:00.000+08:00

I MISS CATHETISM CLASS..yup...was looking thr the pics jus now..then saw the cat class picZ...so cool lor..miss it so much....jus came bac frm bb...today physics paper so stoopid...start 8.00 end 9.15....then finish le....go play bb till 11 then go makan then continue playing...todae at South Cc also saw Vincent and Wei Sheng..my two best buds....yup..they jo ayl, jz, baboon, mi and darryl lim play ball..then i askayl..ayl sae dun wan....hahax....i think ayl haum ji[shhh...ayl doesn't read blogs...does he?] yup..they're doing fine...N lvl this year...yup....tml going out wit ayl, jz, baboon, lewis...then ayl sae SW and LJY coming along..Extra seh....jkjk...anywayz hope dun go East Coast..cuz Fridae going again....Band outing??? the worst part is muz wear PE T-shirt or Band Tee...OH MY GOODNESS!!! hahax,,,,,yupz....got a new phone on Sundae...Nokia 6280...New NUMBER too...Take Note (9229 8764) easy remember rite??? haha...yup

The Game is on....

2006-05-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

haha....once again i'm waiting 4 my keyboard 2 be repaired...-_-'...haiz..no mood to type..SORRY! wait till my keyboard repair liao le then type longer.....yup..till then....i'm signing out 4 the nite....

1life_1lurve

keyboard Spoil!!

2006-05-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

ARH!its not fair....why must my keyboard spoil...FIY i now using the On-Screen keyboard...i feel so pathetic....oh well...yup...major papers are over..onli left physics paper2...tml..going out wit Ayl dey all go watch Mi3...haha...hope all goes well.....still abit new 2 this blog..pls guide me!..thanks Jodie...reali appreciate it...:]...

half done...

2006-05-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

Jo! haha..dedicate this post to u....yupz...trust u knw my style :D....alritEY! angel's feeling tired...Angel never study POA...doing blog.....muahahaha...haha...yupz...thanks Jo...lots of lovE

testing..

2006-05-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

still testing this blog...yupz...dun mind me.....